Jesus said to them, “My food is to do the will of the one who sent me and to finish his work. John 4:34
Prayer to Finish What I Started
I have a lot on my plate. Help me to focus on the finish. Not just to finish, but to finish well. This may mean bringing something to its natural conclusion or to stay with something until you tell me it’s at an end. Help me to figure that out before I move on to the next thing. In Jesus name, Amen
How often do we start things that we don’t finish? We start cleaning and are drawn away by a business phone call. We begin a book only to get swept away by the needs of one of our children. Or maybe we begin work with a group or ministry only to realize that we just don’t have the energy for it. This is life. Beginnings and endings. But when we don’t put a hard and fast line of where the finish is, we tend to simply linger. Loiter may even be a better word! Are we supposed to be there or not? Was the idea that we started with inspired by the Holy Spirit? Does God want us to continue? We are a culture focused on the many rather than the one.
We are a culture of things left undone
Several years ago, I decided to follow a dream that lingered in my heart for many years- I decided to try and be a stay at home mom. I prayed a 54 Day Novena to prepare myself, hoping at the end like a genie in a bottle, that God would answer my prayer this time.
But rather than listen, I hastily quit my job to be that person that I had only heard of in mythical internet posts. I could hear the shouts in the background, Jump! Follow your Dream! Those shouts were my own want and desire but I did it anyway. Thank God the Holy Spirit provided a parachute.
The last day on the job, I felt a rush by the Holy Spirit to ask to stay on hourly until my replacement could be found. I started working my own hours, when I could, ready to set out on the very thing I had dreamed about for so long. I couldn’t hear God’s voice but I did it anyway. And He let me.
It wasn’t very long before I realized that this was not the right move. Nothing ever did fit quite right. I was bored, restless. I did not find any satisfaction at all in places that I thought they would be. The trade -off would be the couple hours I spent at work. I would so value that time.
I tried to balance both but it didn’t work. My job demanded a full -time- plus human being and I had now taken on two jobs. I walked both roads parallel- confused as to how the one thing I dreamed about was the one thing I was growing to despise. And almost a year later, I made the decision to go back to my job. I was at peace.
Walking back one day, in between buildings, I spotted this flowering tree. I stopped for a moment to mark in my mind the certainty that I felt about where I was. God had given me a very specific mission and I told Him that I didn’t want it. It was too hard, too gritty, too emotional. It was in that very moment I realized that the mission would not change, would never go away or become something else. God is the same yesterday, today and forever.
The reason it didn’t feel right for me to be a stay-at-home was because it wasn’t. God had begun a work in me that could only be finished by me. My call was as unique as I was, and my job was to finish what God had started, good or bad, clear or not.
In your unique call, have you felt uneasy? Not understood where it may be leading? Don’t know what your call is at all? Well, don’t move on to the next thing just yet. Sit in what you have for awhile. The very thing that you may be running away from is the very thing that God may have placed you on this earth to finish.