But Saul answered David, “You cannot go up against this Philistine and fight with him, for you are only a youth, while he has been a warrior from his youth.”
1 Samuel 17:33
In 2013, I was a newly converted Christian ready to take on the world. I had put my life of ministry on hold for over a year, as God had told me that He would not use me until I was well. So I embarked on a journey of healing, with the end goal of helping. The finish line for me was the service of God, but I got the added bonus of my own recovery.
After a year and a half or so into recovery, I was led by the Spirit to lead a group of women who had also been sexually abused down their own freedom road. I did not have the words, but God did, and so I was trained up in the way I should go by the same ministry that God had used to rescue me. My first group went so well that when it ended, I signed up to be a facilitator for a second. Same training, some tweaks in guidelines, I started with a new group of women on their healing journey.
But this time it would be different.
Day one, I immediately recognized a Jezebel spirit. She floated throughout the room without a care, interrupted, gave advice when it wasn’t asked for. I tried to steer the ship back to course, but she was obstinate and profoundly usurping of our precious time. I spoke with her in private and that didn’t work either. It was obvious to me that she needed a higher level of care and so I called my Director to tell her that she needed to be removed from the group.
Absolutely not! she said
But you told me that if this exact sort of situation occurred to let you know and to let you know by discerning in the Spirit
What do you know, she said, I’ve been a Christian for over thirty years and in ministry for twenty. You’ve been a Christian less than a year.
Thank you very much for the opportunity to lead group, I said. I am tendering my resignation.
I didn’t remember reading in the bible where it said that someone who was a Christian longer was somehow more qualified than me. It hurt my feelings but didn’t touch my Spirit. I knew I couldn’t be in that place, and I certainly was not going to stay when I knew that bad things were about to happen.
Several weeks after that, I got an unexpected email. I had been invited to write for my church’s devotional team. I spoke with the editor and she said that I was the only person invited who was not on the pastoral staff, but that they loved my writing and wanted me to be part of their team. I thought back to my previous director’s comments.
They washed themselves away
Nobody has the right to tell you what you are or are not. Whether you have been a Christian since birth or newly converted, God’s plan for your life, as it was David’s, is divine and untouchable. We cannot be overcome by the enemy when our hands are willing and ready for battle.
God gives us our gifts and defines our means of travel.
So today, do not be discouraged my friends. Pull out the dream card, the one you hid away under linens and dust. Look at it with fresh eyes. Take the sling and stone of encouragement and wipe off the first layer.
Now make it your Second Act for God.