“So then, my beloved, obedient as you have always been, not only when I am present but all the more now when I am absent, work out your salvation with fear and trembling. Do everything without grumbling or questioning.”
“But if a person distrusts his own judgment, that is a proof of his humility – St. Thomas Aquinas
Walking out of Adoration, I couldn’t help myself. I wanted to capture an image of the Blessed Sacrament to share with those that couldn’t be there. My gut told me I shouldn’t. In fact, everything in me told me I shouldn’t. It was a sacred space, with a sacred air. But I was obstinate. And on the way out I took a quick photo. It appeared on the screen and in the corner of my preview window. Then, right in front of my eyes, it turned to this.
God did not want to be seen
It shook me. I shared the image with a friend.
That was only for you, she said.
My soul agreed
It was only later that I started to think about the image and green screens. God could have him himself in any way, why like this?
I started to investigate the message behind the wall.
Green screens are set up as backgrounds where the subject is placed. According to the Oxford dictionary, the reason that they are used is to allow “a separately filmed background to be added to the final image.” Green screens are used for special effects and replacement of people and places. The sky is the limit on the myriad ways in which the images on the green screen can be changed and manipulated.
But the director has the final say
And aren’t we as loyal subjects of our King standing before a divine green screen if we are truly dedicated solely to Him? Is not the divine will that holy image?
Imagine yourself standing before that green screen, lights and all, allowing God to film any separate scene, person or place of his choosing and placing it with you, behind you and near you. You are not aware of it as you stand there. That is God’s will.
I imagined myself floating in front of that screen as I pondered my worry and care over a situation that has been eating me up inside. I placed myself there as God told me to let go, that it was ok to work out my fears on His stage. That it was ok to be nervous and tremble, not knowing what was right or what was to come.
That is my will, He said.
So I closed my eyes and let go. God didn’t want to be seen, He wanted to be heard. He was speaking to me while the boat was still in the storm, while I was still on stage in front of many. While I could not see what was ahead of me.
God’s will is His not ours. The prayer is the simplest one I know and the hardest to follow- Thy will be done.
If today you are in the midst of a difficult situation, you are not understanding, you are looking at heaven for answers, STOP and LET GO. Place yourself in front of the green screen, and let God direct the final story.