Day 56- The Secret Mile

“Jesus and His disciples left from there and began a journey through Galilee, but he did not wish anyone to know about it.”  Mark 9:30

The work the Lord does in us is sacred, and often times unexplainable. Although the world is still spinning and life is busy, Lent is a time to slow down, to reflect and to spend time alone with our Lord. It is an intentional awakening, a silent cry and a joyous journey. It is a time to work through virtue, self discipline and to feel the glory of the Lord and His Holy Spirit.

And some parts of our journey need to be spent in solitude; pristine and unshared with the world. There is something so mysterious and glorious about that, a divine secrecy. Sometimes the Lord is trying to get our attention saying, let’s make this just you and me. Lent is that time. And it is placed on our liturgical calendar for a reason.

Intimacy with our Lord is real, even for those who have trouble with intimacy itself. God’s healing salve can penetrate even the deepest wounds. His other worldly ways can mend shattered hearts, and bring them back to life, renewed and ready to love again. He can restore, bind up and change the course of the direction that you are walking. You can choose to open yourself to all of this.

There is no need for an exotic vacation to a faraway place. Although you may experience beauty and grandeur in those spaces, you can experience the same beauty and grandeur right where you are. God’s hand is outstretched to you where your soul is right now. Even if you just choose to sit with Him for fifteen minutes every morning over the course of forty days, your life will be changed forever.

Many times, God wants us to experience things with Him to be kept inside our own selves. As Christ is our lover, we do not share those details with anyone else. These experiences are wordless, breathless and available to all. They are enhanced by the reading of scripture, prayer and fasting. They are sealed with the Eucharist. 

Part of my journey of healing was to experience intimacy with God early on. This was difficult for me, as I imagine it would be for many.  I resisted God’s love for me; allowed Him to come close, but just close enough. I kept Him at arms’s length and He respected the distance until I was ready. It wasn’t until I was traveling through my healing that I was ready and able to experience the intimate love of God that I had only dreamed of.

It began in a dream. Jesus came to me and held me. He then set a seal on my arm, telling me that I was His. And I heard this scripture in the background.

Set me as a seal upon your heart,

as a seal upon your arm;

For love is as strong as death,

longing is fierce as Sheol.

Song of Solomon 8:6 (a)

Nothing can extinguish His love for me. Not even death. 

For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8: 38-39

We are twenty- four hours away from the first day of the rest of our lives. Transformation is upon us. Change is upon us. We are able to walk slow, no hurry.  Take this time apart from the world. Focus on Him and what He has for you, and only you. Go to that secret place in your heart that only you and God know about. Your spouse, your lover, cannot complete you in this way, only our Lord can. Let Him work. Settle in to understand the mystery of the crucifixion with the joy of Easter. This year, let it happen in you.

Heavenly Father,

There are so many different parts of me that are hurting that need your healing touch. Help me to focus on you during these next forty days. I want to experience your joy, your healing and the work that you want to do in me so that I can become the me that you want me to be. I want to go somewhere in my soul that only we know about. I will meet you there.



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