As I begin to wrap up my day working on my new project by trying to foster fraternity on the local community level by revamping my personal website. I wanted to share a particular conversation and personal story with a gentleman that I recently had via social distancing. We were discussing a particular person who in an attempt to show his intellectual prowess seemed set on correcting every small nuance. I explained that I am sympathetic because I’ve been that guy and can still be that guy to this day.
I suppose feeling intellectually superior is a pride issue. It’s probably what infected AATW with the break up for the writers and with infection toward the end and beginning of this site. The exodus 90 disciplines have really spoken to me that in an attempt to belittle people with overcorrection, it has a lot to do with trying to control a particular situation and trying to control the perception of people around you. The thing about trying to give up control in these areas which wouldn’t normally be seen as area as problems is that one begins to be open to learning through discourse. When I listen only to reply to merely build myself up and tear down my intellectual opponent discourse ends and learning ends.
I can almost recall the exact moment when I decided to be that guy. For the longest time, I didn’t take my academic life seriously, until finally, I was in the midst of changing my habits. I had changed my major to history and focusing on the American Federalist Age. I was studying the Federalist Papers so fervently that I almost had some of them nearly memorized. And then it hit me, every time Alexander Hamilton walked into a room he (a) was the smarted guy in the room, (b) thought he was the smartest in the room, (c) both. Hamilton not only had those factors but he wanted other people to know them. I remember walking into the classroom thinking, “I am the Alexander Hamilton of this room.” If you read any of Hamilton’s works, as an essayist, he is nearly unparalleled with tearing down his opponents’ arguments during the period. In fact, he’s a magnificent writer and nearly all of his work in regards to the Federalist Essays are first drafts, it’s astounding when you read them.
I’ve cooled off since that period, it’s been recent. So, fast-forward to the present, after observing the Hamiltonian streak in another peer, I made the comment in a discussion, I remember being thus, it doesn’t make you any friends.
I ended the conversation, “it’s no surprise, during the time, what happened in Weehawken.